"Chill" Li Keen

If that's all counsellors say to their patients, suicide rates will probably quadraple. Being more outspoken towards hating some people has helped a lot. Yes yes we all know that hate is bad. But this anger is much better than in sec one. This one feels gooodd...People often say that getting angry over insults and teases by your friends are weak and moody emo kids. Their not. If they were than there would be no need to punish bullies. Of course they hurt. Especially if their thrown at you at every instant. "Chill Li Keen" <--- From Jon Lee. Bitch. It just makes me more angry. You think "chill" can just solve anything? For example. "YOU LIE OBAMA" (I want everyone to know I support Obama btw). If he had replied "Chill dude!" to that guy, he'd be A. Thrown out of office B. Thrown out of the country or C. Get a shoe thrown at him (haha george bush)You can't just say chill and hope that it makes people stop being angry. Of course, Jon Lee or stomata underneath will probably reply that their 'just joking'. Maybe one day I should tell them to stop it for one day and see how it goes. See whether their really 'just joking'. It's difficult to keep emotions in for too long, it will eat you from the inside. No matter what, we are all human, and worse I'm a teenager, in a stage of my life when my peers are more important than my family.

Stomata underneath tied Jon Lohs shoe to the railing today. What an ARSE-HOLE. Seriously. And once again, that's what she said/epic win spammer laughs madly. I would hate him too for siding with stomata underneath but I don't know, something tells me his not like him. He loves history, has strong environmantalistic values, cracks some pretty wise jokes and isn't that bad a guy without stomata underneath around. His as mean as stomata underneath now though... I hope Jon Loh doesn't emo like me and stays strong against these mean assholes.

You know, its true that when you joke about someone you don't think its hurtful. And I'm pretty weak. I didn't firmly go by not insulting anyone. I have, in order to not get insulted myself. And I didn't think I was hurting him because it was behind his back... but it will, it grows. The dark humor grows. I will continue to be stronger to fight back. My pride has been stabbed but it will recover.

In primary school my teacher told me people insult me because I get angry over it. It's kind of true now, but there are other things now... shall put it in another post bah; this one getting too long,

So to all those people who say 'relax lar likeen' or 'chill man'. Sorry, but Im not a mutt. And I think Jia Lok has the right thing going. His unfaltering principles. He can be abit uptight but its way better than tieing someone's shoes for no reason. Those people should go to hell. sighz if Jia Lok sees me now he'd hate me for using so many vulgarities hehe.

Mysterious floating UFO.

Sports CCA members are so hot they smoke

I got another rude awakening to the attitude of young kids today again. Once again, from my younger brother and his friend. Apparently his friend is in Soccer, and when I mentioned my brother's CCA, arts and craft's club, he laughed with a tinge of arrogance. I said "what's wrong with that?" He replied "That's gay and lame!" You see why I stereotype sport's CCA members? He then asked me what mine was, I said choir and media club, and he didn't even understand lolz. These SHoles from sports ccas think they are so much superior but are actually the dumbest kids on earth, did I forget to mention they go to parkway and smoke, shout at teacher's until they cry and get retained but still couldn't care less? K, sorry bout that. Of course, I've seen plenty of great guys too, like the twins in my class, M&J. They never appeared the least bit arrogant to me, are far better than me in their studies (dang!) and make great friends. Both of them are in hockey. The sad part is they make up only 10% of the people in sports CCAs.

Back to my point on young kids today, I'm quite astonished and, there is no other way to put it, angry at these people. My brother didn't show it openly but you could easily tell he was hurt that his 'best friend' insulted him like that and made him feel weak. He said "I don't care..." with a depressed expression on his face. I knew he was lying. I am ashamed that I was like that too, which was why I didn't want to join choir in primary school. It's deeply saddening to say that even at a young age, sport's CCA members are still as arrogant as white supremacists. I hope my brother takes that comment well and doesn't grow up to be a smoking douchebag, he loves art, and hopefully his so-called friend did not 扼杀his interest in it.

What's heartening to know is that even in an all-boys school, I've never heard anyone say that choir is for gays in my school before. The people who do are being stupid. People like Sean Kingston are from choir, and fyi, YOU listen to his songs or other singers. In case your as dumb as my bro's friend, choir members are also singers, which makes us no different from all the pop-stars and rock singers out there, whom I bet use the same techniques as what we learn in choir. Everyone is different, just because most guys play soccer and don't play with clay or color pencils doesn't mean their gay, heck those idiots are just jealous we actually got an artistic sense that enables us to appreciate the arts.

A form of visual art is photography. This form is called street photography.

'O' 水准年

如果您还不知道，今年是我中学生活最重要的年。对，我在用中文写字。虽然我不喜欢用中语谈天，但是我刚刚学到怎么用电脑写华文，而甚至得到B4的我也不仅‘HaoLian‘我刚学到的东西。而且，今年是'O'水准年，如果我多用华文交通，也许能'scrap'个B3来。我知道B3不算个好成绩，但是一旦中国变成世界上最大的经济，他们也不会看你的L1R5。OK,他们会...对不起，我只是在'Fantasise'不用考'O'水准。哈哈。好了，我在这里停笔吧，我懒惰写中文了。=X

Can't believe I managed that lolz. If your chinese is louzy, just use google translate. (And see how louzy their translations are =P) Btw, HaoLian means show off.

In case you don't know, red and green are contrasting and in AEP terms, 'complimentary' colours. Making this exceptional photography as I not only employed the principal of design 'contrast' I also applied the 'rule of thirds' in photography. However, some idiot is standing in the background and spoiling the greenery. What a douche. Still learning how to control aperture on my D90.

Gradual decline into dependance

I've realized that I'd rather post more often than have one whole big post every week. Kinda like Runescape, whom went for a total updates year in 2009, having frequent but small changes, that to me kept me playing as a free member as they changed a lot of the free member stuff if you count them together. Its kinda annoying of Onemanga to post every saturday the whole jin gang of shonen jump comics but its not really their fault. Still, its annoying. So in case I'm too busy on weekends to post, I'll post whenever I can. Especially now that AEP O levels Paper 1 and 4 have started, and I'll probably be going to landmarks and art galleries around Singapore for research. If your REALLY interested MSN me or something.

Well yesterday I didn't explain clearly what the fight was about. Well you see my neighbour has a kid the same age as my bro, and have become exceptionally good friends, especially since he has a wii and loves naruto and runescape too. The problem is my bro, being more pampered me, who is more pampered than my elder bro, thinks he can just start shouting 'IAN IAN (the neighbour's kid's name)' At like 9, 10 plus PM. If KLYZ reading, thats probally around breakfast/morning time and it no problem, but to my mum and old folks in the neighbourhood, its freaking irritating. Even to me its dang annoying. (Being a good boy n studying) <-----Li Keen action siol. My bro doesn't get it, who cares if some grandma living here gets a heart attack you know? Just as long as I can tell Ian how to do shield of arrav properly itll all be ok. WRONG. But although my mum was scolding for the right reasons. She was being kind of HITLER-ISH. Not explaining her rationale, just asking my bro to go to sleep and stop shouting, slowly increasing her volume and switching from words to cane. It pains me to see my mom angry, however much I find her as irritating as my younger bro. WAH IM SO FILIAL haha XD. jkin.

The root of the problem is that my parents are getting older and thus lazier; instead of patiently teaching about saving, give my younger bro whatever he wants. Which leads to his inconsiderate, impolite and pampered behaviour. Maybe his just like that, maybe its my parents giving him too much stuff and letting him have his way, all I can tell you is that wherever he goes and for whatever he asks for he does it as if his king. His still getting spoon-fed by the maid at primary 3 wat the doos =_=".

Anyways, point is whether its dependance on a drug or chocolate, its all the same. 'You can't have too much of a good thing'? Bullshit. Its bad, no matter what. Impulse control is the name of the game. You can't just blame it on growing up having a pampered childhood. Even if you admit your dependent on your maid or games to sustain your lives (wtf?) it ain't going to help unless you do something about it. Restraint. It may be harmless now but not forever. You CAN live without games for a week. Or two. <---Li Keen is a hippocrite =X.

The beauty about sunsets is not just the orange sun sky but also the added feature of silhouettes.

Watching from the sidelines

My younger brother and mother were shouting at each other again. It's weird you know, it's like my younger brother's got accelerated adolescence. His acting more rebellious than me nowadays. What went wrong with him? Can tell you its not just societie's speed warp into the age of the internet, where from young, kids like my bro start playing Xbox instead of lego, Runescape instead of toy soldiers. It's my parent's inability to move along, too stubborn to adapt and hone their parenting skills to match that of the new millenium, where "tried and true" doesn't always work. Still caning, still enforcing, not bothering to learn more. As in really learn more...my mother boasts to ME that she knows how use all these "hip stuff" like MSN better than my dad. She is no better though, my dad knows about this new age, he doesn't do all the shouting that my mother does, but I get the feeling his more in tune to the new age than my mum is. She doesn't even realize I'm writing a blog right now. Wish I could tell her straight on how to parent properly, but I could be wrong too, plus I was born before the new millenium, when I was caned for not practicing the piano, so I'm a little scared too <----Li Keen's a coward.

Meanwhile, my brother doesn't have to learn piano anymore because my mother thinks she was too hard on me. Maybe she's not sticking to the really "tried and true" method, I don't know. I just have a hunch she is. You want to change your ways? Sometimes you just got to go all out to change it, not step but step. Sometimes approaches to solutions don't work together well, you have to choose one. I'm contradicting myself now. Or maybe I'm tackling different views on the problem. It's not up to me to choose for you reader.

Haiz, I'm getting pretty sick of all the yapping. Especially since it always happens at night, when everyone's cranky, including me. I just want to get some dang sleep for tommorow's test and not even closing the door can block out the screaming. The problem is that the shouting isn't continous, if it was my mind would adapt just like how it partially shuts down when we blink <---cool learnt from bio txtbk. So I wouldn't hear a thing and can sleep soundly, nope, it has to be random fluctuations in my mother's tone for dramatic effect. Haha. Time to get 8 hours, byebye. See you in a week?

Preventive measures against texty blogs, enjoy. Yeah I know my photography is improving =D. Camera got wet though. (Yuck! fish slime!)

Intelligence and arrogance

I'm pretty arrogant. When it doesn't show, it's always in my head, making me stereotype people. It's getting worse though I've tried to remedy it. It's not that I overestimate my own intellect, I'm just underestimating others, I suppose. People who suan me or think I'm some goody two shoes. They push me to brand them as idiots. Some part of me tells me what I'm doing is wrong, but there will always be a part that tells me they are truly idiots, wouldn't you agree?

Some people don't care about their future you know? I can't do that, it's not in my nature, especially having parents with successful lives. Even my elder brother is own his way, with a few scholarships to choose from, a good career and position in the NS, attaining 3As and 3Bs in A levels. "If you think too much about the future you will forget your living in the present." Yah yah, HSM 2 freak. Anyways, I'm not forgetting about living in the present thank you very much. I do go out and play, live life, try new things, new foods, new sports. 'O' Level year now though, and it will be hard to do all of the above.

Something totally unrelated...I wish people would start playing more intellectually based games with me. Strategy games, board games, etc. All those FPS or RPG shit, they don't need much thinking, just skill and time. I know I have a friend out there willing to do these kinds of things, and I really appreciate it. I always have this fear that when I play board games or strategy games with my other friends, they will get bored and want to play stuff like Fifa 09 or Halo 3. People think board games are long, tedious and are for bored people. They think their lame, for family, uncool. I don't think so, I think it requires thinking, smarts, strategy. Almost no one plays it thought, and I'm pretty disheartened. Even real time strategy games on the computer like age of empires and age of mythology don't get a lot of attention. People buy warcraft for dota and not the real thing.

I'm also seeing this link between Geography and History students. I sometimes always find that I get along better with history students than geography students. Plus history students also tend to play these kind of intellectual games like age of mythology and empires. They tend to be interested in plot, story, history of games. Maybe its cause most history students are in 4D 4H? Don't know. But even they do not play board games, though people will play chess, which is heartening. One day I hope, people will just grow up and stop thinking about whats cool and not cool, cause they don't matter to me.

It's going to posting at these kind of times, since school's started and its 'O' level year.

Back to school

Back to school again...I don't know, but I feel like I've grown a lot this holiday. It seems so surreal now, like I was truly happy in a long time. Haiz, now back to school, I'm feeling pretty neutral. For one thing, new things (though not much), and all of us studying together for the final run, the final stretch that resolves four years of study in Victoria. For another, I'm going to face some of my old problems again, like certain green photosynthesising people. Homework.. sadly. Studying. Sadly. I'm really dreading tommorow. Partly cause I haven't really completed my homework. Partly cause there are going to be back to school tests. Maybe. I just don't feel in the mood for anything right now. I just wish I could turn back a clock to the start of the holidays and tell myself everything I've learnt from it. Don't you?