Cheap

The past few hours has been a mistake in cheapness. I think I need to fear less about money, which is not the same as not caring about it, but it is detaching myself from whether I'm richer or poorer by a few dollars. I think I still feel threatened and seen or valued by it. I think that when I was younger it was not necessarily making money, but saving it cleverly that got praise, and that has wired my brain in a non-well adjusted way.