Erhu

Lately I've been watching reaction vids to both Avatar: the Last Airbender and Legend of Korra, reminiscing both series and the banter I used to have with my friends about nerd shit in general. It was refreshing and sad at the same time. I was thinking about what I would do after I inadvertently finish both series (the reactions to them) as I still remain in a mental quagmire of my own disciplinary doing of refusing to start anything new as it would seem wrong to do anything new while in a state of transition that I wish everyday would end but ultimately rely on good fortune to take me out of. Just a random thought, I think at this point I'm too lazy to label or flair my posts. Although I still might.

So I decided one of the ways I used to calm down and go to bed was by blogging. It's tough right now even after a glass of milk because of the amount of coffee I drank and the lateness of it. I even knew kind of what I was getting in to but I could not say no to my mum offering some to me as I knew it would probably make her happy. Ultimately, it's because of the sharp contrast of going to bed so isolated from all my friends, which was not the case in collage of course. My friends here in Singapore have naturally settled into other friend groups they've had in university or work, and I am ultimately separated from all the close friends I've made overseas, and Chris - something I anticipated and accept. But perhaps I am being too inflexible and should try watching something new.

Meeting Yams was nice, however long we've not seen each other, she was very astute in asking whether I was lonely here - and I am. I miss Chris, my fraternity brothers, and my brother and sister-in-law for the brief time they were still here. I am not close to my parents or my younger brother by very much, and my VS and NAPS friends all have their own things to do as I said, although that might just be work. Ultimately, I don't want to spend money either, so I am going to try and stick youtube or games I've already bought for entertainment when I need to escape job hunting or need motivation. Right now, the truth is my biggest two leads are things I just have to wait for, and I am not even confident after the (in my opinion) fiasco that was my 21 hour Stata assessment. I ultimately fell into the same error that I've always had with GP papers and open-ended assignments - I lose track in my creativity and naturally divergent thinking methods.

So here ends I guess my first 'talking to the internet' in a while, as I don't really have anyone else to banter to. I really cherish the fact that such a medium exists - online communities provide a niche that is I think underappreciated by those who do not use it or stereotype it. This post was titled erhu because the legend of Korra's finale theme (just titled 'legend of Korra' by Jeremy Zuckerman, the composer) makes me cry.