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Thursday, 23 December 2010

Indonesia atheists go online

Straits Times Page A13 December 23

So if you read this small article which unfortunately is too small to post online... Just like to put it out there I think countries should be as secular as possible. Not only is it fairer in a globalised world, but some of the leading countries in HDI are very much leaders in being secular as well. Sweden, Norway being examples. Err, I think.

Anyway, the 2nd point I wanted to make was to Hendrik lol. Cause your right, atheists = people with no faith, and not my initial idea of anti-religon.

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Away from 1.20AM Friday  24 Dec to 1st Jan


You all know the drill. Don't call, avoid sms.

Tuesday, 21 December 2010

A family Christmas

I'm going off to somewhere which I will only say if you ask me. From 23rd Dec to 1st Jan

But right before that I'm going to see my juniors carol on Wednesday, so if you're interested to join me... ya let me know lol.
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I have no clue how Husain memorize the lyrics and doesn't know Japanese



As though gathering up the crowded out wind
Following along with the waves, racing into the distance
I'm deciding to be resolute, even though the road is far away
I'm continuing on to the future that I've sketched out
To you, who are far away from here
I want to send a piece of it, and the wind from those days, to you
I'm not lonely, you'll always be here
The wind connects us, no matter where we go
Time urges us along
The speed of my pulse increased
Even though we were awake within our dreams
We were searching for the same light
Beneath the shining starry sky
The uncountable number of constellations and shadows
Follow the sleepless nights
I search for a faint echo of it

Even though the meetings and partings repeat themselves now
I'm still this much of a child
I can't cast the fleeting image
Over to the roadside

The next time that I see you
I'll untangle the tangled threads
I'll talk until I get tired
And I'll smile as much as I can
Slipping away into the brilliant streets
The morning sun colors my cheeks
Ahead, what are you gazing at
Just what are you gazing at, I wonder?
Just what are you gazing at, I wonder?
Time continues to fly by
The wind connects us together
I'm not lonely, even now you're here
No matter where we go, the wind will...

Monday, 20 December 2010

Disconnected

Where is everybody?!

I just spent 15 minutes downstairs pacing the floor waiting for at least 1 of 7 people to reply or call me back. They still haven't. So I scrapped my solo outing to watch my juniors carol which hopefully would end off with a dinner with them. There's still tomorrow anyway.

But then, I can't help but feel really disconnected now with everyone. 80% of facebook users aren't posting, and half the blogs I visit aren't active. I can't really expect everyone to post everyday. And yet this isn't everyone. No contact with my Primary School friends since Not So Silent Night Concert at VJC.

Haiz. I'm overreacting like mad.

Last time, a call would be received in 5 minutes. An SMS in 30. Don't you guys have your phone nearby at all times? The speed of communication must have altered my thinking somehow. Perhaps I have been playing too much single player I'm desperate for some feel of the outside world. Yeah, my younger brother and maid were out for 2 hours, which perhaps could have numbed my mind.

Anyway its too late now, I'm going off in 3 days.

I really need something else to do. I haven't got any new music, games or shows in weeks! Why, o why do you all have to take up jobs during the best time to enjoy ourselves... Are you guys prepared for adult life already?

I'm feeling a why you no meme right about now

Sunday, 19 December 2010

I wonder...

What others are doing right now.

What they're thinking.

What their families are like.

If my mother enjoys shouting. Probably not, its more of an addiction to impulse. She just shouted at me for not choosing my brother's school bag out of a choice of two. O_o Can you just calm down and collect your thoughts? Guess not. Her motto if she doesn't like it she'll shout. Cats probably do that.

Have you been scolded for not doing anything because you don't know what to do since from the start the person whose scolding you has been leading the charge?

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The guitar in the front is just, nice to listen to, I don't know why.

Thursday, 16 December 2010

Wikileaks

There has been a lot of talk about 'not believing the official story' going around, especially with Michael Moore's quote supporting Assange.

I'd just like to point out that believing the conspiracy theories, without analyzing the facts, without clear evidence, and discounting the official story completely, is almost equally naive to me.

I do not believe conspiracists have no motive. That they are altruistic people who seek to 'inform' the truth. Nope. People throughout the centuries, like to scare. It's fun, it's enjoyable even. People also like authority. They want to think they know better than others,, that its their duty to spread the word, that they have the power to change the world, probably what I'm doing now isn't it?

Well like it or not I enjoy preaching hehe.

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Humans are naturally flawed. Do I think it is possible for someone to be completely benevolent and good-willed? No. We judge. We misunderstand. We assume. We don't know much to be honest. Socrates' quote comes into mind: 'All I know is that I know nothing'.

I'm not a pessimist. It doesn't mean we can't try to be good people, or be someone we think we ought to be.

So Michael Moore's vision of a completely transparent society? Not working for me. I picture endless wars, as diplomats and politicians lose their reasoning when faced with frank feelings towards each other.

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You know Lee Wei Ling? MM Lee's neuro-scientist daughter?

She wrote an article for think-thank a while back. I was influenced by it. She says we don't need to be too politically correct (PC) all the time. Kind of struck me as more credible writing. She wrote frankly and sincerely, and maybe more importantly, against what my conventions of MM Lee's daughter would write.

She said that the races are different, and we cannot deny it. Jews are better economists. Aborigines are less intellectual. But her point wasn't to generalize. Her point is that, through culture, religion, history and time, human beings became different. its just genetics. She meant that in general, the races are so on so. One example she gave was that most Jewish Rabbis were scholars, and because they were highly respected in Jewish society, they were often sought after for marriage, and hence continued a line of smart children.

She remains United Nations Approved though, because she goes on to say, that it's also true that an aborigine can win a Jew in a math test fair and square, and that we shouldn't judge an individual right away based on a majority, but still, we need to take into account their strengths and weaknesses when making policies and what not.

Even Dr Mahathir said, that if Malaysia adopted a truly meritocratic society, a fair and equal system, something like Singapore, the Malays would lose out to other races. He didn't say it directly, but we can guess what he meant.

So can you really blame the diplomats for saying such impolite comments about other countries/races? Are they being discriminatory? Yes. Are they wrong? Maybe. Who knows? No one.

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I am seriously pushing the boundaries of freedom of speech here.

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I like this song now Jaren!

Fatal error ffffffffuuuuuu!!!!

Over 5 times this happened and I still got nothing better to do! I'm sure someone did a rage guy like this before but I couldn't find so I made one cause if not I'll be playing more dota ai and having more fatal errors just when I get triple kill/ultra kill/rampage/god like/holyshit/full luxury build!!!


Now you know what I do when I'm bored. Dota and tumblr xD

Monday, 13 December 2010

Thrill seeker? Probably not

Went to Universal Studios yesterday =D (as in Singapore).
Was fun bah... but... NO BATTLE STAR GALACTICA T_T  WHY WHY WHY
With it, it would have been complete. The whole experience I mean.

I'm usually a very paranoid person, a scaredy-cat if you will, so it was really odd for me to just start chionging all the scariest spots and what not. I just, felt like it. Perhaps, ironically, it was because of my paranoia, because I'm definitely not a thrill-seeker. I was afraid of wasting 60 freaking dollars and doing everything half-baked, you know? Like for the attraction of viewing some hurricane in a sound stage, I stood in front on the so called 'splash zone' and I was one of three people to sit in the front most row, the 'soak zone' while watching waterworld, out of a crowd of 300 over. Those in front carry umbrella some more = =. Come on SG, where's your spirit?

Stupidly, I didn't get soaked at all, people behind me did. Maybe the cast just thought it would be better to 'disturb' those people who too afraid to brave the front road, so they just spray the 2nd row ++

At least the audience was a responsive bunch. The response from the front section of the audience watching 'Monster Rock' was just terrible. No cheering when asked to, no clapping, laughing at puns, just stoned, poker faces. Maybe caused it was filled with a lot of less young Singaporeans and also had a lot of conservative Muslims. The back section was encouraging though, mostly made up of youngsters.

Now I will talk about rides. Back then I was super scared and probably closed my eyes almost every ride. Don't know why but for some reason my bravery went up tenfold yesterday

Revenge of the mummy - best of the lot. (Without Battle Star Galactica of course.... T_T) The funny thing is, the queue is really short (only 5 minutes on a SUNDAY during school holidays), cause apparently everyone's scared to take it. (wtf) The mummy was kind of scary, but since I watched both movies like 4 over times, it wasn't really much of a thrill. Thought the Spider-man ride in Universal Studios Osaka, the equivalent over there, was better. Got 3D glasses mah lol. Both had the same super funny twist. SPOILER ALERT. First part of the speeding part of the roller coaster, you 'crash' into this wall, then start moving BACKWARDS! lol. Awesome.
A rather short-lived ride though. Spider-man was super long, and awesome.

Jurassic Park Rapids Adventure - Disappointing. Queued 1hour + and all they give me is some less than 1 storey crash. Lame. Curiously, it was nearly exactly the same as the one I took in Osaka. But the latter was definitely better. SPOILER ALERT! Firstly because the T-Rex head in Osaka looked like it could swallow the whole raft, but the one in Singapore, meh, maybe one person. Second cause the final drop is like 2 storeys. Warning though, very very huge splash. Even my hair got soaked. I liked the Singapore twist to the ride though, cause suddenly you will enter this lift nearing the end of the hydroelectric plant that elevates you to the T-Rex. Osaka was different here, I will not elaborate.

Enchanted Airways - 2nd of the lot probably. Definitely suited for kids, because its more thrilling than scary (Opposed to revenge of the mummy), and had some funny moments in it. Its supposed to be a 'junior roller coaster' anyway. So yeah. SPOILER ALERT! The drop was slightly disappointing though, cause you reach a respectable height than slow down cause you turn right a way. Dang. Didn't give me more than a significant stomach churn.

Accelerator - Lamest of the lot. Nothing my dad's driving can't do really. Just take an exit from ECP or towards Safra Country Club, and you can achieve nearly the same effect. I can have a nice lunch inside, though I'd probably spill everything.

Canopy Flyer - 2nd lamest. Indeed, your feet isn't touching anything and that's pretty scary. But then again, nearly 3/4 of the ride you can see a safety net below you by barely one flight of steps. Plus, the ride is over in lik 10 seconds without so much as a 3 steps drop. Nice ride to cool off.

Shrek 4-D Adventure - Respectable. SPOILER ALERT! I deem this a ride because your seat will move and spray air and water at you though you don't really move through space. The 3-D glasses give it an edge. The story is amusing and the scares are adequate. (At one point a spear is pointing directly at you with your 3-D glasses on. Nice)

That's all the rides I went yesterday. I'll end this long post (I think, haven't pressed the 'preview button') by naming in order of merit (best being first place) of all the rides I've taken in my life and can still remember)

I didn't do much at Universal Studios Osaka because of the weather causing most rides to close...
I will base on impulse, so queue times matter cause they affected my mood.

1. The Amazing Adventures of Spider-Man [Universal Studios Osaka]
2. Spider-man? [Genting Highlands outdoor theme park]
3. Space Mountain [Tokyo Disneyland]
4. The Corkscrew [Genting Highlands outdoor theme park]
5. Revenge of the mummy [Universal Studios Singapore]
6. Jurassic Park: The Ride [Universal Studios Osaka]
7. Dragon? [Can't remember where, Genting Highlands or Hong Kong]
8. Snoopy's Playland [Universal Studios Osaka]
9. Enchanted Airways [Universal Studios Singapore]

Argh. Just realized there is still a Transformers ride, TWO battle star galactica rides, and a Madagascar ride I haven't taken DANG IT.

Wednesday, 8 December 2010

"Not fairy tales but porn" An excerpt from the Straits Times

I don't know why I'm continuing this streak of news commenting but this is pretty funny.
Lost in translation I guess.

"Beijing: Chinese publishers have pulled a collection of Brothers Grimm fairy tales from children's shelves in bookstores after mistakenly translating a Japanese pornographic reinterpretation of the tales.

China Friendship Publishing Company and China Media Time translated the erotic retelling of the stories by Japanese duo Kiryu-Misao without credit after mistaking them for the originals, the Global Times newspaper reported." Agence France-Presse

The Straits Times Wednesday, December 82010 Page A29
Poor Children

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I think I naturally prefer British to American music.
From the Burnout 3 Soundtrack, which I think was the best of the burnout games I've played, which is only burnout 3 and burnout paradise lol...
Decent Days & Nights - The Futureheads
Curiously, do they put the song title first or the artist first?

Tuesday, 7 December 2010

Permit denied for human rights march

In the home section of the Straits Times today, an article with this title can be found.

In a gist: "Police have turned down an application by the Singaporeans for Democracy political association for a permit to stage a march on Friday to commemorate International Human Rights Day"

So That's the first line of the article, and I'm immediately thinking: "Wtf, how could they? Its perfectly commendable!" Police cited a vague reason as usual 'law and order issues' they say. Once again, I'm astonished, is it an inside job? I'm already thinking.

Then I went on reading and found the answer.

"30 people...march with placards calling for freedom of speech and assembly, and free and fair elections, among other things" and "planned to hold the march from Hong Lim Park to Parliament House" AND "Police are advising the organiser to hold the event at Speakers' Corner in Hong Lim Park.

Want an L4 answer? The police is a branch under the government and hence blah blah blah. Standard no-brainer.

Now do you want an L5 answer?  Well IMO, protests and march have a knack for drumming up issues for no reason. For instance, after witnessing the Red Shirt protests on the news, for some reason, I just thought half of Thailand's population consists of red shirts, the other half being yellow shirts. Which is really superficial thinking, but its true. People just need to see these sort of big events staged by a small numbers to become over analytical.

In fact, the red shirt protests only covered SOME of Bankok. Compared to the rest of Thailand. Super small. Yet, there's so much hype about it! True, there was also a lot of violence in this event. But don't you think calling for human rights and free and fair elections in front of Parliament may cause some misconceptions?

Passerbys may start thinking that Singapore's system of Government is in some kind of peril or facing imminent collapse and about to be taken over by Hitler or something. Don't underestimate the power of suggestion.

Bottom line: Staging such a march MAY cause a frenzy for no reason. It may even undermine the government in the process.

In fact, I was just talking to my ex-classmate yesterday (actually today at around 1am). To me, protests always bring attention, but rarely change.

Do you know Jon Stewart from the daily show? He organised a 'rally to restore sanity'. One of his key points was: We cannot allow radicals from different sides to always be shown on the news and slowly becoming the voice of the people. He was speaking of recent Christians VS Islam events in the USA. And I agree with him. Seeing all these marches/protests may not really be the voice of the people, but merely a small group of radicals CLAIMING they represent the majority.

Of course, you can disagree with me! This is a blog, not a encyclopedia. There have been protests that succeeded, and I think partially because they did represent the majority. Like marches for Women Rights back in 1960-80s? America.

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Just watched Valkyrie yesterday (rented the DVD from VideoEzy)
Good movie, as history students, we know the outcome but we still want to know what really happened that led to it. Was a good thriller and most of the facts are fundamentally there. Tom Cruise seriously looks like Von Stauffenberg, the other actors and their respective roles too.
About the real story, they tested certain change in factors later on and the conclusion is really sad.
Had the 20 July bomb:
1. Been detonated with both explosive packs that Von Stauffenberg had
2.Been detonated inside the reinforced command bunker as was planned before the day was too hot and shifted to the conference hut with windows
3. Not been shifted by one of the German officers to behind the table's leg that shielded Hitler by accident
Hitler would have been killed.
I respect these brave men.

Monday, 6 December 2010

Left out

With so many people taking jobs during the holidays, its kind of making me feel extra guilty for not taking one. I see the benefits of course, but, I just don't feel like working, at all. Am I just super lazy? I had a holiday in mind already, with everyone having fun, relaxing at each others' houses, going to jog or watch movies every other day. Everyone's working or overseas now, and I'm feeling really lonely and depressed.

Is this what everyone already planned? Already hoping for? After the tiresome endless studying for the 'o' levels, going to work? You have so much to live for, don't fast forward your lives please. This holiday, so short lived, isn't it for resting and playing before gruelling JC life? Is it for money? Is it for work experience? Or is it, simply because, you were in my position, and your friends gave you an opportunity to join them? You know, I plan to work after JC, that much was sealed when my elder brother did.

I just don't get it. Am I just being immature and irresponsible?... Feeling really fucked.

And all this while, feeling the blues and jazz of this funky bass.

Friday, 3 December 2010

Those of you who don't tumblr won't understand xD



Yeah I made it myself =D

On a side note, did you know Halo: Legends (from which I get this meme from), a collection of 7 anime-style halo shorts EXISTS? You did? FINE. ERR ME TOO. I DEFINITELY FOUND IT FIRST.

Not bad I would say, worth the watch if your a halo fan, I watched everything including the special features.

I WANT TO WATCH RAPUNZEL NOW.

Only panicked in my dreams

Throughout the 'O's, I admit it, I was, in a way, enjoying my life. Yeah I did study moderately, but I could wake up late (for afternoon papers), go home early, and do whatever I want. No paper exceptionally frightened me.

Yesterday, I ate Cambodian for dinner, lots of curry, nothing unusual. Probably doesn't go very well with sprite float (which my younger brother ordered) though. So at night fast asleep and dreaming. The most terrible dream occurred!!!

The 'O' levels were still here and I had one day to prepare for my CHINESE DRAWING AND PAINTING exam tomorrow =O THE HORROR. CHINESE + AEP ?!?!?!? I had no ideas and no prep work!! I panicked very much and the extra amounts of adrenaline pumped into my blood must have woken me at that moment. I woke up still thinking of ideas while my subconscious slowly dissipated. That's when I thought to myself:

The 'O's are over you dumbass.


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My good 'ol Canon (delighting you always) Ixus compact is broken =((

A wise photographer once told me you need both a compact and a DSLR at any time to be a good photographer. That's the beauty of the compact, take it out any time and its ready to capture a fleeting moment, no need to change all the buttons and what not. I grieve for my camera...



That photographer btw, is Vincent Munier... I love his work... exactly the subject matter I'd like to take one day.


Visit his website!


HE USES NIKON YESSSSS

Wednesday, 1 December 2010

Me-day

The word 'alone', to many, carries negative connotations.

But it isn't necessarily so. I believe that the sooner someone stops thinking that being alone is boring, depressing, anti-social, or sad, the sooner he can enjoy being by him/herself.

We all need friends, I agree. But how is it that my generation just has to call someone up on his iPhone 4 or waste hours sms-ing just to escape solitude, I do not know. Why is it that you can't spend some time having your own fun for just a day or two, or an hour? Have we lost ourselves to socializing?

Till this day, there are still hermits, there are still elderly singles, people, who spend a possibly endless time alone. Maybe we are all just scared we'll end up shooting ourselves one day and die single due to loneliness.

Its true that staying lonely forever is really really tough. But not for few hours. Why not do the things you always wanted to try? There's no one around to judge after all.

Well, today my entire family is out and I'm by myself alone in my house.

I woke up like any other day and drank milk, read the papers, played some single player Warcraft, showered, read some Lord of the Rings. Went out for lunch, still by myself, listened to music, progressed on my new year's resolution by renting a movie (instead of every Singaporeans basic instinct to Torrent).

Every person should be him/herself. I sometimes feel that we all have lost some originality in ourselves somehow. 

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Rifdi's text break!! =DD

It may seem strange to some of you when I refused fast-food with friends. But that's just me. I'm certain there are others who would do the same.

Well in the news today, on Prime Page A3 you can see an article on how hawker food ain't healthy either.

But one cannot be too shallow.
When you eat fast food, where does the money go? To TNCs who already earn billions. Turn on your television and you'll be hard pressed to not find at least one advert on fast food. Do hawkers advertise their sodium-rich, msg-drenched, processed food via mass-media?

And its ironic here isn't it? Do you notice these adverts often have youngsters (and sometimes elderly) chowing down on their products with glee? And yet, nowadays, while teens go on about rules and nasty parents, rebelling against 'the system', they are easily taken in by popularized products and fast food which insidiously do harm to them?

Then again, I know that everyone IS different! So if you just NEED to go out and spend everyday with friends, go ahead =D
Bah, time to stop ranting and get on with my single-player afternoon =D

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HAH TWO DAYS NIA. Sim City 4 can do it in seconds!!

Tuesday, 30 November 2010

Paranoia

I am known to be a scaredy-cat.

I've turned out to be a pretty paranoid person and it helps sometimes, others it becomes a liability.

Well... my blog isn't exactly dead, its just that.
1. I'm pretty busy having a blast.
2. I'm kind of paranoid of some keylogger on my comp ever since last week.

So yeah. Short post. A QUICKIE MARCUS

Wednesday, 24 November 2010

HACKED?

I am fucking screwed.

Facebook, most tumblr websites, a lot of other websites.
Error 101 (net::ERR_CONNECTION_RESET): Unknown error.

If you don't see me active online, you'll know why now.

On a private note, I visit 4chan sometimes for the pokemon pics and memes haha. Suddenly:

You have been permanently banned from all boards for the following reason:

"this makes me moist" to child porn

Your ban was filed on June 27th, 2010. This ban will not expire.

According to our server, your IP is: 218.186.11.233. The name you were posting with wasAnonymous.

Your appeal was reviewed and denied. You may not appeal this ban again.

WTF?

I never discovered 4chan until very very recently, like in October earliest. Does this mean I got hacked? Is there a keylogger? I just logged into blogger! Someone help me please. Please text or call, CBox also got error 101.

Monday, 22 November 2010

Some random facts (music)

I'm bored, so I'm going to list some of the most random or interesting facts of anything about my life to see what the response is! =D

Music (either on my playlist, or used to be, some songs that I want I couldn't get so this may not be accurate)

Longest name (in words) on my playlist (English): Black Suits Comin' (Nod ya head) - Will Smith [6 words]

Song with funkiest language: Praan -Gary Schman (Bangladeshi)

Approximate percentage of instrumentals/no lyrics songs: 70%

Song that has been on my playlist for the longest time: Breaking the Habit -Linkin Park (est.5¼ years)

Oldest song: Scarborough Fair - Simon & Garfunkel (1966)


Weirdest song title (subjective): Last name Cranelchabod <----wtf is this! @_@ -Kevin McMullan


And there you have it folks.

WHAT IS WITH THIS SONG THAT MAKES IT TOO AWESOME???
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Friday, 19 November 2010

The IC moodswing

According to DISC I'm some weird opposite blend. Hey that makes me a balanced person right? =D At time bah.

Other times, I just simply stray to the extremes of both ends. Argh, somebody please remind me when I'm in a mood swing to get my head straight. Almost inevitably I become a hypocrite interacting with different groups of people, particularly between age groups... Over my younger brother's age group I become some domineering arrogant bastard. To my friends I'm pretty normal and to adults I become slightly... err docile?

Its like, when interacting with higher status, I lower mine, and with lower status, I raise mine.

New resolution for next year bah.
1. No more pirating stuff.
2. No more shortchanging attitude
3. Exercise more? I actually haven't thought up to 3 new year's resolution yet lol. I don't usually do this every year.

Tuesday, 16 November 2010

A new day comes

Was it the warmth of the sun?
Was it a good nights sleep?
Was it the blog post?
Was it well wishes on my Cbox?
Or was it just realizing that, as I said in my post, I prefer a small group of my closest friends, and in that respect, I can achieve it.

Even though more than half the class is gone, I know there is still Sam, Jaren, Jin Xiang, etc around. The local crew haha.

Maybe I'm just slightly saddened that You Duen is going on a near perpetual holiday overseas.

And I know we don't have to say our goodbyes anymore. No. There's always facebook lol.

What is with this sudden mood change? I'm not pregnant >.>

The gloominess of the night has just washed away, because I know. I know that I can just pick up the phone and call some friends over, or go out and walk around. Why? CAUSE THE O LEVELS ARE OVER!

And to Bing Yu. Indeed, I'm so glad it happened!! I should just be thankful, and enjoy my break, don't think so much!! Learn something new maybe! Dang why my bro overseas I want learn skateboarding.

Life Goes On

Monday, 15 November 2010

And then there was VS

Left.

Even though the end of 'O's is a joyous occasion for many, I have mixed feelings.

Maybe you don't have classmates who don't stay in Singapore and have fun with you all the way, but for me, without them, its just not the same.

Its like 4D has lost part its flesh and blood, and the holes make the body a divided entity.

I know I should be celebrating, but the holiday is just one month. One month to an unknown future.

Its like the 'O' levels was a period of limbo, like we've officially left but not really physically. Now its really over, and I can't help but feel really depressed for some reason.

The whole feel of it, my life in VS. Everything I could do during the holidays just seems to dwarf in comparism...

Perhaps its as You Duen put it, superficial.

I don't feel attached to some of my 2D and Primary School pals. Not anymore, and not as much as I am to 4D.

It seems so superficial, as he says, not sincere, not deep, not matured, who am I to share these thoughts? Ryan Tan? Oh please. And he still has this notion of inviting millions 20 over people to my house for movie marathon/video games thing. Does he realize I will never fully enjoy these events? Does he realize I prefer a small group of my closest friends? That I prefer hugs to halo? That I prefer world politics to Wii Resort? (BUT WII RESORT IS AWESOME THOUGH... still, no one plays that much with me...)

I need this blog now, not more than ever, but badly still. Why do the people who seem to socially understand me closest have to be so physically far away.

I seem to be talking about 4D and VS at the same time and jumping in here and there randomly, well maybe because they are not different in any way. 4D was the best part of my life in VS, well maybe besides the choir. I'm not afraid of antagonizing any old pals anymore, because this is how I really feel, and this is my blog.

I'm not saying everyone else is bad. No, not Zaki, Marcus, Rifdi, Henry, Extra, a few more maybe.

I'm really confused right now. Maybe I'm just tired after 4D outing.

According to Maslow's law of Heirachy, I haven't satisfied my sense of belonging (which has kind of just been lost), so no pics and music, you know, under Aesthetic purposes which is above sense of belonging.

The timing of my family outing feels a bit off for me. From end Dec to Jan, meaning the end of the holidays, like I'm detaching myself from my friends... before it begins.

At least I have my companion D90... Emo = Art you know.

Sunday, 14 November 2010

Random Post

Sooner or later everyone's going to have one.

Soo....

Did anyone notice I changed the blog title caption slightly about a month ago? Added extra phrase.

When emotions run wild

When you have just woken up, especially if you were drunk last night.
When your tired, especially after a terrible day at work.
When you're like me, and you have chosen a path of much solitude.
When you're like me, woken up earlier than everyone else on a quiet Sunday morning, lonely.

I advocate a lot lately, that just because you choose not to pursue a choice that leads to friends at the expense of something in you, it doesn't mean your anti-social. So I lived by it for a while.

I look back and I'm slightly confused, regretful even. All those times I chose to eat alone because I refuse fast food, all those times, are they wasted away without friends? Nearing the end of this year, it feels so much like it. I seemed to have forgotten my VS life was coming to a close, and I should make the most of my time with my friends, before I say goodbye.

It's not that I would give up a view, a stance, just to have friends. No, that's just like joining a gang, succumbing to peer pressure. Still, I cannot shake this feeling of loneliness. I just need one. One friend that will follow me.

I'm even mulling over my choice of 'a change in environment' thing right now. Do I really want to go to RJC? Possibly leaving all my friends forever? Of course, some might say its never forever, we'll always remember each other. Yes, remember each other, then. But we won't see each other through the times and things, the friendship may never be restored to its original state. I just wish, hope that at least one good friend will follow me. Don't make me give up my academic dreams, please.

I don't know if you can empathize with me. You didn't choose to go alone when no one else would.

I just... I just want to have so much fun with my friends now, before we all part. I'm so lonely, I wouldn't mind going out to watch a movie I dislike with Alif and Rifdi or something. This is probably exactly how I felt when I left Ngee Ann, just that I couldn't fathom it then, I didn't understand. I still miss all my Ngee Ann friends dearly, but they've changed, and I know that, but its still depressing. I didn't follow them, and now its like I don't know them. Will this happen when I leave VS? Undeniable. You know the answer.

But

All this happens, in the wake of Aung San Suu Kyi release, and I am deeply humbled. I shouldn't fear change, or progress. I'm just afraid, of leaving where I belong, into the great unknown future. Even after two decades of detention, this woman still holds on to her mantras closely. I wondered why she even got a Nobel Peace Prize, now I understand. What will happen to me? Will I change? Forget? What happens when I leave, 4D, will I ever find such a like-minded class ever again?

And all this while, Keane's Everybody's Changing just rings and plays in my lonely head.

How I spend my solitude sometimes. In my childhood? Building lego cities. Now, Sim City 4. I like the myriad of music in the game, it suits the different themes of a city atmosphere, from jazz and bossa nova to techno and electric. A 'life goes on in a bustling city' feel and the 'fast paced development' feel. This is the latter. Why no sim city 5!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!?????????????????? Will Wight LEFT DAMMIT.

Wednesday, 10 November 2010

Thank you 4D SO LATE SO SORRY

In case you were wondering, the order of the friends are somewhat by when we 'established ties' first, but I can't remember clearly so its all jumbled up. At one point in an effort not to leave anyone out I'll go by register number

Especially for 4D, I want to write nearly the same thing for everyone, THAT ALL OF YOU ARE AWESOME. Yet repeating vocabulary will not do good in the near future, which has an 'O' level English paper.

Hendrik
For being the friend I can disagree with, but a great friend nonetheless

Wei Chung
For versatility in knowledge, from politics to cameras, that makes you the most awesome guy to have a conversation with

Jun Yew
For beating time, lending a listening ear and being the like-minded friend I always look forward to seeing everyday

Xuan Jie
For friendly competition as a deskmate, and plain friendliness and when I say friendly, I mean possibly friendlier than the Thais

Nguyen (Wind)
For being EVIL INDUSTRIALIST with me lol, being the friend I can work with anytime

Darius
For tolerating me haha I know I'm pretty annoying. but more than that, for being the person peer leaders everywhere should be like

Mani
For your spiritedness and great insight in any subject

Bhagirath (Bhagi)
For being unafraid in expressing your views and practicing what you preach

Amrit (Amy?) haha
For being a skilled debater and good friend, you might have touched something in me that is giving me thoughts of becoming a debater myself

Pinak
For your perseverance and outspokenness and though others may put you down, your courage which I admire

Rama
For being you and only you, a uniquely lovable person

Saw
For being 'best friends' with me I'll never forget

Jia Lok
For everything. By everything, I mean literally, all the times we've been through together, nearly every subject and in the same boat that Mdm Ow deemed as the most stressed people in VS haha, I only wish I could give back more to you, DESKMATE

Khanh (Max)
For your sense of humour and being a great monitor

Amirul
For being so upright, decent, diligent, intellectual, you name it, there should be an idiom called 'all work and all play make Amirul an awesome monitor'

Samuel Wee (Jackson)
For being the RS friend I longed for haha, but other than that, also a good friend in my life

Mai Than Nhan (Alex)
For showing me that scholars can be just as aesthetic as academic

Ravi (Kumar)
For being the 'cool' guy, always calm, always hardworking, always awesome

Pisek (Palm)
For appreciating my lameness where many wouldn't

Jirawin (Win)
For adding even more flavour to the already aromatic Thai group!

Justin
For DOMO YAYYYYYY, oh and you of course, of course your more important err whudd OK Serious part for being the friend who thought me how stupid I was to associate all sportsman with Daniel, standing up for what you think is right and showing me the true meaning of hardwork

Marcus
FOR DOMMOO TOOO
For being the awesome friend who laughs, cries or makes an entertaining expression at my jokes, and like your brother, righteousness and hardwork

Calvin
For being a uniquely awesome classmate!

Jetanat
For making me laugh non-stop!

You Duen
For giving your insight and shaping my perspective on many issues

Nithi (Bank)
For being smart, sporty and sincere

Josiah
For being whacky but brilliant in your subjects

Gerard
For being calm and collected all the time, maybe helping me when I have too much coffee

Natdanai (Game)
For insulting Alex with me patiently teaching me and helping everyone else in the class too, your the best welfare secretary I've seen!

Jin Xiang
For sharing lame jokes and table tennis rounds

Ahn Tuan (Victor)
For being a like-minded gamer and student at the same time

Jaren
For listening and engaging in the most interesting discussions, and bringing your own flavour into them

Yong Kiat
For showing me I still have a long way to go before becoming a polite person =D

Hoang (John)
For SOMEHOW always playing with me during floorball lol!

Adrian
For gradually becoming my good friend, I wish I knew you sooner!

Nhat Thang (Ken)
For embodying the principle of being wise without talking

Saturday, 6 November 2010

Boiling Point

You know a show called boiling point on TV where they make random people tolerate extremely annoying situations and give them a time limit to tolerate it? Should they pass they get $100 and the revelation they were on the show?

I've been tolerating my new neighbour's 'pets' for over 3 weeks now, so can I get my $100 please? 



Why? Let me tell you why.


*Walks past neighbours house without even looking* "BARK BARK BARK BARK BARK BARK...."

*Sits in front garden reading newspaper* "BARK BARK BARK BARK BARK BARK...."

*About to fall asleep for afternoon nap* "BARK BARK BARK BARK BARK BARK...."


*At 12 midnight* "BARK BARK BARK BARK + CLING CLANG CLING CLANG (hitting its metal dish)


*At 7.00am, sound asleep after late night ventures* "BARK BARK BARK + Cock-A-Do-Da-Doo (Neighbour also has chickens <---wtf.)


*Walks in backgarden to stretch* "BARK BARK BARK BARK BARK BARK BARK...."


And you know what the fucked up part is? My neighbour doesn't seem to give a shit the dog likes to give it at random places though. After patiently requesting they control their dogs, they responded politely and said they were... yet all this while I don't see them doing ANY FUCKING THING.


Oh, did I mention one of the family members smokes?


Argh... yet, I seem to be the only one in the whole dang neighbourhood who is affected. Sensitive hearing? Or just have this ability to hear only noise and annoying sounds? Guess it doesn't help my room is right next to the dogs at the back.


Now there's also construction works at the back of my house. I need a rageguy comic for this.

Helvetica?

Listening to this old song. Not catchy (since I don't speak Cantonese) but just nice? I'm not talking sense. Sleep Deprived

Wednesday, 3 November 2010

Slacker

I'm a really lazy person when it comes to revising. I hardly do any at all, especially if I know most of it.

I never actually bother to fill in the gaps and so far that hasn't come back to bite me in the butt yet.

I don't even know if when I finally cannot breeze through exams without intensive studying I am concerned at all.

I never seem to give a damn if something goes wrong, as if I can justify my every action... I keep telling people to not make excuses... I'm a real hypocrite. When am I ever going to fall and get back up? Will I be able to get back up? This post isn't going to help

Saturday, 30 October 2010

Normal blog post (since when?! =O)

If you have done considerably consistent work throughout your life in VS, you might find the 'O' level as normal as can be, possibly even fun, given the free time.

Everyday I wake up I read the newspaper if its an afternoon paper. Right now, much like a regular blog, I'd like to share some of my thoughts on some interesting news I find nowadays.

SGX-ASX merger

Ok I'm not one to go straight for economic news (I find it positively boring!) cause I know nuts about 'liquidation', 'assets', 'default' or whatever. However, I find this one interesting because there's a lot of politics involved, especially on the Australian side (Of course, this is reported by our own news, so I can't be sure if there isn't some level of bias).

So if you don't follow the news, here's the breakdown. Singapore has made an $11 Billion dollar bid for the Australian Stock Exchange (ASX). Now, I don't know much about economics as I've said, but from what I know a stock exchange buys and trades shares, and helps companies list their own shares, so by buying over the Aussies, we technically merge all the companies listed under both, which gives us tremendous potential, much like how the South East Asian nations pooled together to form a large single production base called ASEAN.

With this merger, both countries' stock exchange will become very attractive in the Asia-Pacific region, given the tremendous size the stock exchange becomes. It may even be a threat to Hong Kong's stock exchange which is the largest in the region. (Helped largely by the gargantuan number of companies that list themselves in, for the fact that the Chinese Government laws that all comapnies that set up in China list in Hong Kong)

Here's the problem. Shareholders for either exchanges have their shares 'diluted' because the merger makes their stake in the exchange smaller in comparism (I think). So they will naturally protest. At the same time, some form of Xenophobia (I don't know if this is true, I think its rather tragic Singapore is also attacking Australia, though its just an opnion).

Here's where my views come in:

Perhaps, maybe Australia has these negative feelings towards Asians all along. I mean, if I think about it, Australia is a very different, very western country, in what I would consider the middle of nowhere, where just a large pool of salt water (called the Indian Ocean) stands in between 800 million South East Asians. At the same time, it has been attacked by Asians before! Remember World War II when Japan did strike at Australia?

And here and there we are hearing reports of Indian students being attacked by nationalistic Australians. Of course, to be fair, Australia is a generally friendly country, and these cases are exceptions. But are there underlying xenophobics? I don't know, maybe, and here's why.

Australian politicians are targetting our alleged 'appalling human rights track record'. Even so, well I don't give a dam what they think, cause I'm having a good life here really, and by the way, our economy PWNS them. I'm just saying.

I'm reading a lot of comments such as 'Repressive Authoritarian State' and 'Insult to freedom of speech' about us, and actually, there's no denying it, we aren't as 'free' as America or whatever. But guess what, we have racial harmony and are one of the least corrupt countries ever.

Maybe they just feel its not right that a small little red dot is in control of one of their prized assets. Heck, I was really surprised we even had the capacity to buy over them. I mean, I get that you know? But are we really taking away what they own? Like I said, I don't know much about economics so I can't tell.

HEH looks like I used up most of my self-imposed posting limit without talking about other news. I guess this piece of news is just so darn interesting? Or am I just a weirdo? OK time to crawl back into my cave <--- Jaren taught me that.

Why no more of my photography or music? OK I'll try and seive an old piece of photography out.
Have I posted this before? Can't remember. Malaysia. Yeah its pretty louzy I know haha, I got no more good pics liao.

Friday, 29 October 2010

Century Post

Haha some kind of reblogging. I saw this and thought it deserved some recognition haha. 'Reblogged' from fomfomfom.tumblr.com

This is my 100th post since restarting, and nothing special to say.

Tuesday, 26 October 2010

To what extent should one re-invent?

OK Not going to do an argumentative here but since Jaren mentioned discrepancies in the 'Myths' issue of the Present Perfect magazine, so it sort of sparked off something in my head.

An age old debate that has seen many different forms; Industrialize or not? Modernize at what cost? Will this erode our roots? Demolish the cultural heritage site and make way for brand new office buildings?

This has always been a grey area hasn't it?

I realized after pondering for a moment, that I have been contradicting myself all this while. While I brush off Indonesian artists' attempts at painting grim pictures of Indonesia's rapid industrialization as idiotic and stupid, I resent movies like 'Clash of the titans' for utterly destroying (OK I know its not utterly) the original myths they were based on.

So for industrialization, to change a farmer's way of life in light of better economic prospects, is it worth it? Considering his whole life, his spiritual needs and his well being have been based off routine and simple tasks?

Maybe its a matter of choice? Maybe its just that people don't like it they are being forced to industrialized sometimes, much like the Soviet Union pre-world war II, which by the way, progressed greatly as a result!

In the end, is the whole idea a subset of whether you should let others 'do whats best for you' or 'let you be'?

Then in a different topic but not entirely, how much should tradition and culture change to fit changing times? For instance, should Chinese be taught the same 'tried and tested' way that has been done for centuries by scholars of the middle kingdom? Or should it re invent itself, and suit the new learning methods of modern children?

Is it the same as cultures, which attempt to modernize themselves in order to reap more tourists dollars, in the process, possibly eroding its value and becoming a pseudo-culture?

I'M GOING INSANE WRITING SO MANY QUESTIONS


Progress or Roots?! Is there a compromise? Should they build a mosque near ground zero that is meant to promote peace, or honour the civilians who died? (By the way I totally support the mosque in case you don't know, I think its really stupid that people associate terrorism with Islam) WHY AM I EVEN GOING BACK TO THIS TOPIC?

OK DANG IT I'M GOING BACK TO MYTHS.

Sorry but this has to get out, and possibly has nothing to do with the above post.
OK BEFORE I START: I HAVE NOT ACTUALLY WATCHED CLASH OF THE TITANS.
Clash of the Titans is completely horrendous in adapting the original myth. Then again, the film is a revival of the original movie Clash of the Titans some time in the '80s which already skewed the myth enough.

From what I know, and I don't claim to know much haha, this is what the film got right.
Perseus is after Medusa's head (This is obvious)
Perseus wants to save someone (Yes yes keep going!)
Perseus is a guy. (REALLY? O SHY...)
Err... I can't think of much more actually... The film was quite a while ago

What the film got wrong (I'm saying the correct version which I know off, ONCE AGAIN I'M NOT TOTALLY RIGHT (Though I sound like one but hey, its more fun lol)
The gods are on Perseus side!!! Hades IS NOT A FUCKING BAD GUY SERIOUSLY. Why do people always associate him with evil? HUH? WHY? Does everyone think all underworlds are bad? Don't assume what you don't know. Yes its true in most stories, underworld = hell and hell is bad. BUT NOT GREEK OK? In fact, part of the underworld is a garden which is actually, omgosh you wouldn't believe the irony: HEAVEN. Yes the underworld also has heaven. The rest of it is pretty gloomy, but not evil or torturous.

Ok heres the deal, Hades actually lent Perseus his helmet of invisibility to fight the medusa.
Other gods who helped: Athena lent Perseus a shield, later known to be the Aegis shield that Athena binded the head of Medusa to, it was used to see the Medusa's reflection via the polished face. Hermes lent Perseus his winged shoes.

OK here's the part which is really horribly, terribly, SPASTIC.
THE KRAKEN IS FROM NORSE MYTHOLOGY
Anyone who actually thought the Kraken, a deep sea dwelling, definitely non-Mediterranean, giant squid-like monster was from Greek Mythology should slap themselves. DAM HARD.

I think if I actually watched the movie I could have discovered more nonsense but for now I think all this from watching the advertisements are satisfying enough =X By the way Jaren if you made it this far I think I did found some problems in the Present Perfect version of the myths, talk to you in school if you want.

Monday, 25 October 2010

Thanks Bro!

My brother bought these posters from the UK and they are epic!

I think this should be addressed to Kim Jong Un xD

*Update* They should add Singaporean corporation: you have two cows, one is in your retirement fund, one is exchanged for cow milking upgrading courses
Erm, Do you guys understand the Italian and New Zealand one? The Enron one also super cheem.

Sunday, 24 October 2010

Essay frenzy 2

Topic taken from English Resource Book: Stars

Floating in murky milk, they glistened serenely. Their five tips gave the stars both aesthetic and physical balance at the same time. I prodded them with my crockery gently, generating ripples like a leaf falling onto a calm stream, disturbing the tranquility inside the bowl.

Slowly but surely the waves dissipated and serenity was once again restored on the surface of the cloudy concoction. I glanced back at the stars again. Some of them were bobbing up and down subtly, probably an aftermath of my 'spoon intervention'. Others merely laid back and let the milk guide them, as if sun tanning in a swimming pool. My mind drifted towards physics and the random movement of gas particles as I stared endlessly at the pool of yellow stars diffusing throughout the bowl of milk.

I gazed more intently at the stars and noticed a puzzling phenomenon --- they seemed to magically disappear into the milk, leaving a froth of bubbles behind that made the bowl look like it had been sprinkled with fairy dust, or should I say, star dust.

As I zoomed in for a closer inspection, the sweet, sugary smell of the mixture wafted into my nose and caressed my taste buds. I started to salivate lazily and hungrily.

Tiny drops of my saliva compounded in my mouth and fell onto one of the stars, causing it to react even more vigorously with the milk. I pondered for a moment at the strange sight. Yes, my biology teacher, Mr Munir told us our saliva contains amylase that digests carbohydrates, I understand now.

'What are you doing staring at your cereal? Hurry up and finish it or you'll be late for school,' my mother snapped.

I quickly came back to my senses and was suddenly acutely aware of what I was doing. Mr Munir sure did a good job teaching us to observe and question everyday objects and processes. Just look at me, scrutinizing a bowl of Honey Stars.

Essay frenzy

An essay I just wrote to practice writing and writing, preparing for tomorrow. It is influenced by Runescape lore, but the theme is recurring. It is inspired from the theme of the story writing competition by Jagex, which is to write about the Third Age wars of Glielinor (Runescape).

Holy War

Bright flames sparkled in my hazel eyes as I stood there, rooted to the black soil. Frantic families and panicking pets ran amok amongst the burning homes, their homes. The stench of death mixed with suffocating smoke was unbearable. My first reaction to this horrifying scene was an upwelling of hatred towards the accursed god Zamarok, but the nagging feeling at the back of my head took hold for the first time.

Zamarok is not pillaging this village, Saradomin is.

Since I was a little boy, I witnessed countless times, soldiers of Saradomin, marching through the streets and I told myself that one day I too will be in that gleaming, almost luminescent steel armour. That I will fight for righteousness and justice, and rid this wretched world of all the evil that Zamarok has wrought.

Why? For my village was attacked before. My village, the only village for miles loyal not to Saradomin, not to Zamarok, but to Guthix. We did not partake in the war and was left unharmed because of our neutrality, but one day, one of Zamarok's generals decided to ransack this defenceless settlement in the name of his master. My parents, the village elders, remained true to Guthix's ideals to the end, stood down without a fight. Slaughtered cruelly in front of my eyes, I cursed Guthix in his long slumber, for forsaking my village and parents.

After that terrible ordeal, I sought refuge in a nearby church loyal to Saradomin. They instilled into me all the 'wisdom' of Saradomin, and that was when I saw the armies of Saradomin valiantly defending our homes. So at just eighteen, I joined their ranks.

Which brings me back to the village I was 'cleansing'. After two years, I was weary. Apparently it was our duty to burn any lands that Zamarok's armies have trespassed, to vanquish the evil.

However, as my eyes darted from charred structures to mangled bodies, I solemnly wished I had not joined Saradomin at all.

'Ah!' shrieked a woman.

'Not my wife!' bellowed a man.

After hearing a final swish of a steel sword, I could only hear the blaze of 'holy fire' behind me.

Then, I spotted a frail looking child walk up to the dead couple. His face was twisted in despair and covered in tears. He had hazel eyes. I prayed silently.

To Guthix.

~End~

As aforementioned, this theme is recurring. You might say that it resembles the theme of the Christian Crusades.

Friday, 15 October 2010

Blog

I visit 5 blogger blogs and a couple of tumblr blogs regularly.

But I want to post about the latter. Though not as conventional as the first, I believe the latter has a lot of depth and meaning. True, one might say most of it is reblogging, hence its originality is loss. But does originality truely matter when the content is just good?

'Integrity is doing the right thing when no one is watching.'

I take this from Hendrik's blog, and I think its one of the most meaningful quotes I've ever seen. A blog, I think, is somewhere you share. You share experience, opinion, etc. In tumblr, its mostly pictures and quotes. While some say it is rather thoughtless and distant, I truely beg to differ.

'You are what you eat.' applies here. While this may not be food, it has similar meaning you know? Someone doesn't have to write original things all the time to be a unique person, perhaps its just the different combinations of music we listen, pictures we see, books we read, that influence us, that imbues in us, the originalality of ourselves.

We are all made of the same bases after all aren't we? Adenine, Thymine, Cytosine and Guanine. Yet we are so different people. Its just different combinations.

The couple of tumblr blogs I read can have the same affect, bring me the same joy when I visit them as any blogger blog that has an essay-long post, by just having one word, which aptly put, paints a thousand words.

Why am I double posting? Maybe its cause I just did a TK paper and realized there is no answer, has rendering my work, well... pointless. <----

Thursday, 14 October 2010

Wow. Most amount of flaming I've ever seen

Woah! Have any of you seen the amount of flaming and argument in here?
Click the link I put below, and read through some of the 'this comment has been flagged as spammed'
Notable flamers here:

Alkbjaopeir
somuchsolittleful
ContemplateYourLife
elearis1
berriwine

I'd just like to warn you its not for the faint hearted, for I too felt a tinge of hatred after reading certain comments. Then again, I laughed out loud at others. Howvever, I'll try to remain as neutral as possible because people are entitled to their own opinion for all I care.

The video I'm talking about

I just want to put in perspective here, that I don't think almost any arguement here can be credible concerning individuals because this is cyberspace. People don't know each other. They don't see each other in real life. The only evidence they have are the comments they have put up. Which is why it is very difficult to make sound arguments.

They don't have the context.

That's why we study history is it not? Like Mr Khoo said, we don't go into an exam blind.
No one knows what the others been through in reality. Thats why we need to be understanding and respectful. Its not as cut and dry as some SBQs like Harry Truman speaking about communism.

This is a bit of an add-on to that previous post on the 911 conspiracy. I mean, I see people who act 'enlightened' when they have just closed their mind. I believe that not all sources are reliable just because they go against convention, in fact, that's totally wrong. They are only reliable when they go against their OWN convention, for instance, if a person blames himself.

I think I'm starting to beat around the bush, maybe you should just read some of the comments and tell me what you think? If anyone actually reads my blog haha.

Tuesday, 12 October 2010

Logical Fallacy

I know its a logical fallacy to simply place blame on just the medicine I took, but really I'm just saying its the critical factor.

Cumulative factor: hot and dry weather

Contributory factor: Kopi Tarik yesterday which was full of condensed milk

Once again everything's my fault. How could I let this happen. People keep telling me mental strain or whatever, you know, I'm not that hard a mugger seriously. Half the time I'm playing. The other half is doing 10 year series. Most of my knowledge and prowess of a subject comes from listening and understanding, not so much revising.

SCARED

Sorry 4D but I'm really angry right now.

I don't know why I keep listening to my mother, and when I prove her wrong, she doesn't give a damn. Yet everything the same situation happens she always tries the same approach.

Drying medicine

How did I get sick again? Dry and hot weather.

Right, so why am I taking drying medicine?

Cause the phlegm will form into lumps and get washed down easier than liquid form.

But its an infection, you can't wash that down, it'll get worse.

ARGH WHY DIDN'T I JUST NOT TAKE IT. ITS TOTALLY MY FAULT.

I WOKE UP WITH A FUCKING NOSEBLEED AND WORSE INFECTION.

HOW THE FUCK AM I SUPPOSE TAKE THE O LEVELS WHEN ITS THE SAME BLOODY INFECTION THAT GOT ME SICK FOR 3 MONTHS....

OH SHIT OH SHIT OH SHIT OH SHIT

Saturday, 9 October 2010

2D, Thank You

Jian Wen & Jason
For our own little corner of fun, maths and Harry Potter movies.

Ryan Tan
For drinking my coffee and eating my instant noodles being school and game buddies and being lame with me =)

Henry
For teaching me many things including humility, friendship and DOTA.

Isaac and Ryan Loy
For being the decent friend. The friend that I didn't know well but is still that much important to me.

Tze Yang and Clive
For being an outlet for creativity and fun, and working together with laughter editing for endless hours

Marcus
For being the sensible and responsible student and yearbook helper, but also because you let me be more of myself around you then most of the 2D/AEP gang

Rifdi
For all the times we had together, whether in choir, media club or just watching PLANET 51

Zaki
For the friend I could talk to. About history, music and work.

Farhan
For helping me discover my fondness for lame jokes.

Roy & Jeff
For listening and being a familiar face.

Yong Wee
For being helpful in every way I could think off. From Work to Transport to Japanese culture

Ian Leong
For being lame around me, I really needed that. =)

Ian yang
For hitting me many times when I was lame, because it showed that you listened and cared. And for all the fun I had at your house.

Kang Sheng
For stopping me from fighting, for bringing me back to my senses, for being my 'desk rival', for table tennis, for fetching me home.

Shi Xian
For being that person, that person I knew I wanted to be like.

Jerome
For blackshot, for however short-lived that was haha.

Gaofei & Truman
For teaching me how to play badminton properly hehe.

Husain
For being strong and upright, for letting me absorb your atmosphere, your confidence and decency.

Mr Zabid
For teaching me not everyone is perfect, but we must respect them all the same. (Including teachers)

Mr Tan Chiong Kiat
For your encouragement and guidance, for showing me you can be many things, PE or Maths.

Mr Tan Wil Beng
For Maths and good 'ol fashioned teaching

Mr Hamilton
For being compassionate and funny at the same time

Mr Ron Tan
For the Geography lessons and quirks

Mr Koh
For physics, jokes, and pure teaching skills!

Mr Palai
For teaching not just good biology, but neatness and aestethics

Mr Daryl Tan
For perhaps sparking my interest in History

Mdm Farrah
For giving me that strong enough foundation in Chemistry, its kind of my pet subject now

Ms Neo
For persevering, for critisizing us and making us stronger in English, even when the whole class seemed against you

Ms Nooreny
For being compassionate and skilled, taking my math grades to a whole new level

Mdm Ding Ni
谢谢您帮我拿个‘B3’。而帮合唱队达到更好的成绩。

Friday, 8 October 2010

VS

My friends
My teachers
My life and soul

Pardon my horrible singing, I'm not a tenor and I don't have time to edit nor retry.
Isn't it the thought that counts? Thanks to Green Day for their song Wake me up when September Ends. I changed the lyrics but its the same song.
video
The vid may not have been as sentimental or emo as you hoped but the lameness its me I guess, and nothings going to change that. Thank you VS.

Saturday, 2 October 2010

Down but not out? Ok I couldn't think of an appropriate title

Well. Everyone's on a hiatus, and apparently it means a break from something good to do something bad. (Thanks You Duen!) I'm going to be on standby cause who knows one fine day (Perhaps after SOVA) I decide to vent anger or something.

Wow tell me if I'm lagging but I just subscribed to this guy, not just cause he is a pretty good guitarist but because 1. ASIAN PRIDE 2. He plays a lot of songs I like 3. He's two years younger than me

Tuesday, 28 September 2010

Not bad at all!

Was shown this by me bro. I'd rather not post this on facebook, cause it can attract a lot of flak and presumptions (including myself of others oops). Though I was a bit put off by the airy first part, it turned out not bad. Perhaps ironic is that she can pronounce english better than aerosmith. Then again the singer is apparently American born so I'm talking nonsense. OK JUST LISTEN LA.

Wednesday, 22 September 2010

Philosophical Phase Part 1

ALLITERATION!

*Jaren mode activate*

By all means, marry. If you get a good wife, you will be happy. If you get a bad one, you will become a philosopher.  -Socrates


*Jaren mode deactivate*

This morning during recess, Mr. I'm too cool for school tried to intimidate my beloved friend Jia Lok who stopped him from doing unspeakable evil! (Cutting queue at the noodle store)

And so began my mini philosophical phase.
I think there are many wrong doings one can do, and sometimes, it really boils down to a few faults that cause it.

The fallacies of immaturity

Ignorance of the multiplier effect

Description: The inherent belief that one's misdeeds will cause little effect because one is insignificant. It can also refer to wastage of time because 'it's only a little while'.
For example, if I cut queue, everyone just has to wait a little longer.

Consequences: Every tad longer accumulates. At times, the herding instinct that follows one person cutting can cost 10 minutes in lost recess times, effectively close to a third of our break.

Actions as a result: Choosing to ignore environmental acts, cutting queue, playing games for hours, oversleeping, procrastination, lack of participation in group activities, etc.

Solution?: Thinking before doing, planning, just do it (applies to environmental acts for example)

Oversimplification

Description: Thinking straightforwardly in situations, acting on own impulse and thinking, or looking things only at surface level. Unconsciously drawing on own experience and applying it to every person and situation.
For example, 'nobody cares if I cut queue' (just because he himself thinks that way)

Consequences: Misunderstanding, misconceptions, misperceptions.

Actions as a result: This post is already an example! Arguments, telling racist/hurtful/sick jokes, aloofness, overgeneralization, assumptions, acting as if you understand people completely (Dang I'm doing it right now, it can't be helped if you want to get a point across I guess), etc.

Solution?: Keep an open mind and heart, get to know people before you judge them, don't assume anything, listen to people (not just their tone, voice, etc, even their body language, how they act, etc.), don't instigate on jokes (how would YOU know if someone is really hurting inside but keeps a false front and smiles when you insult him?)

I think I'll continue this on another day.

Rule of thirds fail. Photoshop win.

Monday, 20 September 2010

AEP has not ended

While everyone's blogs (meaning about only 7 people lol) was posting "AEP is finally over". I did not.

Apparently my teacher forgot to print my book out, but that's fine I guess, just as long as I don't get penalized for it.

Then, even now when we have 'sealed' our final products and boards, I do not rejoice.

Be realistic people! Do not over celebrate! It ain't over till its over. Till the cows come home. Till the fat lady sings. Till kingdom comes. TILL SOVA FINISHES.

Or did you think you can just smoke through it? I don't think so, so don't do that.

So I bet your wondering why I don't post much photographs nowadays? You don't? FINE. I'll tell you anyway. 1. My old stock has finished. 2. AEP forbids many of my good photos because I have included them in my coursework. 3. I don't have time to take photos anymore.

These photos were in fact taken when I was using my ancient KODAK camera. It was a time when my skills were still pretty awful. The images have not been edited.

I just realized I posted this in conjunction with the release of the Present Perfect India Issue lol.